How many times have I walked out of a room and said something that tore someone down. How many times have I raised my voice out of anger and told myself that it was just to be heard. How many times have I pointed my finger at somebody else. How many times have I made a mountain out of a pebble. Too many.
I am so imperfect and cannot number the times I have messed up and said something that I regret. How could a God who is absolutely perfect want to use someone who makes so many mistakes? I found these verses a little while ago and they meant so much to me.
1 Corinthians 1:27-28
But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong; God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are,
The thought of God choosing someone weak seems so crazy, but when you think about how many times God chose the low for his plans in the Bible it’s more obvious. God chose the line of Jesus to go through Benjamin, the youngest. God chose the shepherds to be the first to worship his son, one of the lowest professions in society. God chose James and John as disciples, fishermen which was also one of the lowest professions. God chose Matthew as a disciple, a tax collector who were people despised by society.
There are days where I feel like I will fall to pieces. Where I feel like I can’t hold it together. God still can use me, and that’s awesome isn’t it? God chooses the weak. He chooses the ones that know they can't do it on their own. God has an amazing plan for my life that I cannot fathom. The fact that I am imperfect and he still cares makes it so much cooler.