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Today, I Feel Nothing

 
 
Today was supposed to feel much different.
Family would be forever.
Reality would come of plans.
Oh, how the world would party.
Control would be handed to proper hands.
I've imagined this freedom for years,
What I would feel if permanency came.
But it happened, and crying--well, I just can't.
I was supposed to feel lots of somethings. 
But I'm numb, stunned. I feel nothing.
 
~
 
After four and a half years, the four foster kids that live with us are able to be adopted. Many of you have tagged along on this emotional journey, and now you deserve to know of this exciting news. God has wowed me over and over. He has reminded me that His timing is always perfect. As of today, I have not reacted to the sudden news. One day, I will cry, but not today.
 
Thanks for joining this journey with me.
~ Alyson

Comments

  1. Hannah Joy1/29/15, 7:21 PM

    This is.....goosebump giving. Thank you for sharing. Thank you so, so much. AGH. God is so good. :-)

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  2. Cally Declan1/30/15, 10:36 PM

    Ditto to Hannah Joy. Agh. So, so good.

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